Fuck, I'm so done. I'm just so fucking done pretending that everything's alright. I walk around with a huge fucking grin on my face like sunshine comes out my fucking ass because I have to. You know what I realized today? I don't have to. I don't have to pretend that I'm okay just because that's what I believe society wants to see. I don't wanna push my problems on anyone, but I'm sick and tired of hiding the fact that I'm so pissed off all the time. Maybe I want someone to save me? Or maybe I just want everyone to shut the fuck up and fuck off? I'm not sure yet, but either way, I'm done.
Why should it matter that I'm a bit on the sadistic side? So maybe I'm a fucking sociopath. I sure as hell don't give a flying fuck; hell, I enjoy it. Yeah sure, manipulation's a great thing: but it has it's own set of unwanted repercussions. People expect something out of me, well fuck you all. If I need your help and I don't promise anything, just simply smile and act friendly to get you to help me out with something; you shouldn't fucking expect anything in return. That's your own dumb ass fault for fucking helping me in the first place.
I recently started talking again with this guy I vaguely knew in high school. Just chattin' and he might have this crush on me (that's what it seems like anyways). But he told me that I was a 'legit' and 'honest' person yesterday. Does he even realize that I'm subconsciously manipulating him? I doubt it. I should feel bad. But I don't. I just sit there and smile because I'm getting away with it.
So from now on, fuck pretending like I'm alright.
12.9.10
Jesus Asshole
"Hi! My name is... SUPA BIOTCH!"
Yeah, if I had a name tag that I could wear everywhere, that's what it would say. Fuck people. No seriously, people are fucking wastes of life. Some people are actually decent human beings, others are piss poor excuses for humans... Who am I talking about?
The fucking Jackwagon in FL. who wants to burn the Qur'an. Seriously? When will people learn to mind their own fucking business? If he wants to believe in God and Jesus and all that good shit, good for him. But leave Allah out of this. Why is everyone up in everyone else business anyways? It shouldn't matter what everyone else thinks or believes. Maybe that's just me being a bleeding heart liberal, but come on!
List of shit Night Sai doesn't give a shit about:
-Who your God is.
-Whether or not you believe in Santa
- What you do in the bedroom
-What you do outside of the bedroom
-What you do in the back of your car
List of shit Night Sai cares about
-what you do in my car/bed/table/kitchen/couch.
That's it. Other than that; keep yourself to yourself and STAY THE FUCK OUT OF EVERYONE ELSES BUSINESS.
For Christs Sake
Yeah, if I had a name tag that I could wear everywhere, that's what it would say. Fuck people. No seriously, people are fucking wastes of life. Some people are actually decent human beings, others are piss poor excuses for humans... Who am I talking about?
The fucking Jackwagon in FL. who wants to burn the Qur'an. Seriously? When will people learn to mind their own fucking business? If he wants to believe in God and Jesus and all that good shit, good for him. But leave Allah out of this. Why is everyone up in everyone else business anyways? It shouldn't matter what everyone else thinks or believes. Maybe that's just me being a bleeding heart liberal, but come on!
List of shit Night Sai doesn't give a shit about:
-Who your God is.
-Whether or not you believe in Santa
- What you do in the bedroom
-What you do outside of the bedroom
-What you do in the back of your car
List of shit Night Sai cares about
-what you do in my car/bed/table/kitchen/couch.
That's it. Other than that; keep yourself to yourself and STAY THE FUCK OUT OF EVERYONE ELSES BUSINESS.
For Christs Sake
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
