Save Myself Before I Drown

I'm content with life. I really am.

No, that's a filthy lie. I want so badly to get more out of life. I don't want to be rich, I don't want to be famous and I sure as hell don't wanna be a politician. But god knows I'm so sick of doing nothing. I know that I'm the only person who can change my life; but at the moment, I'm kinda stuck. And when I think about my life and what's going on with it, it's like I'm drowning and there's only so much water I can tread before I drown. I'm stuck at home because I fucked up in school. Sure I can go back in January, but there's consequences that I have to deal with financially. I'm broke, and that sure as hell doesn't help me accomplish my goals/dreams/wants/or needs. I can't find a job, I'm trying my ass off. Okay, so I kinda found a job, but it's not set in stone and to be honest, all I know is that I'm assisting a physical therapist. That's the extent of my knowledge about it.

I know that everything will work it's self out in time: I'm not even being optimistic. I just know that these things take time and I have to be patient... I never was one for waiting around for life to start though. I just wish I had something to do to occupy my time while I wait until I can go back to Bozeman. I can't wait to get back to school: at least there I was distracted from my own cynical, emotionless ass...

Ok... I'm done ranting... for now anyways.